long time since I updated

It's been forever since I logged in here to update. In that time my surrogacy journey has ended and we've added another little one to our own family. A little boy. We named him Sonny. He is the cutest little thing!!!! And soooo snuggly.

My Review of Stairway Twin over Twin Bunk Bed-2 Free Mattresses!

Originally submitted at SimplyBunkBeds.com

For classic style, quality craftsmanship and smart, space-saving design, the Stairway Twin Over Twin Bunk Bed is an excellent choice. The top bunk features safety rails on all sides for increased safety and it's accessed via a set of sturdy stairs. These wide steps are easier and safer for s...

Stairway Twin over Twin Bunk Bed-2 Free Mattresses!

Great bed

By ShannonM1976 from Vermont on 3/6/2010

 

5out of 5

Pros: Comfortable, Sturdy, Fun

Best Uses: Toddlers, Pre-Teens, Young Children

Describe Yourself: Midrange Shopper

This bed is beautiful, sturdy, my girls love it. It matches the hardwood floors in their room perfectly. The only drawback is the stairs arrive fully assembled. This is a great timesaver during assembly but they are big & very very heavy. If you have to take them upstairs (like we did) make sure you arrange help from some good strong men. Or pay the extra to have them brought in for you.

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Taking a break, Snow and school

Our surro journey is on hold until June. I think Travis updated SMO so most of you who follow here probably already knew that anyway. Until then I won't be posting much about it.

We had snow here in VT this week. It was beautiful on the trees. I got some awesome pics. Shoveling it...aaahhh not so great. Girls had a blast playing outside since it's also been school vacation week.

School is going well. Next week midterm projects are due in Human Growth & Development. March 5th starts registration for summer classes. I can't decide if I want to take the summer off or keep going. The break would be nice. But on the other hand if I take classes year round I'll be finished sooner. I do know if I take classes it will only be online. No way I want to be tied down to a classroom all summer.

Cycle Update

Well AF showed yesterday so we have cycle #6 negative. I've sat here trying to think of positive things to say. It's not coming to me this morning. This whole thing sucks! I'm frustrated, angry, sad. Hubby left to take the kids to school so I'm sitting here crying. If he saw me crying I'd get that look like I was nuts. I don't understand what is going wrong??? Hopefully the Dr. can give us some answers on Wednesday when we meet with her. It's so hard not to let all the bad thoughts creep into my mind after this many failed cycles. Maybe I'm too old? Maybe I'm not meant to do this for some reason? Whatever game Mother Nature or fate is playing with us...you will notice NONE of us are laughing. So knock it off already!!!

What a whirlwind!

Ok where to start??? First my middle one had strep throat. Then the oldest got scarlet fever. Scarlet fever is from strep but the body reacts differently to it and you end up with a rash. She's now itchy from head to toe with the rash healing. Then the baby had fever, complained of sore throat day before yesterday. Off to the dr's office again. Sure enough she has strep too. It's her 3rd time having it. The first times were while she was less than 2 yrs old. Dr says there may possibly be a referral out to an ear, nose, throat doc because A)strep that often, that young isn't normal B)her tonsils have stayed big and red for a long time. Yesterday hubby went on antibiotics for strep. During this whole thing I've been coughing, sneezing, stuffed up and cannot hear in my left ear because something is blocking it. I'm off to the docs tomorrow to get poked with needles. For my nursing program, the college needs proof of immunizations. Ummm I'm 33 yrs old. My pediatrician is dead. His old office building is now a music store. So I get special treatment....titers to see if I'm immune to everything I should be. If I'm not I get to have immunizations. Woo Hoo doesn't that sound like fun! Hopefully it doesn't take long to come back. The college put all my financial aid on hold until they have proof of immunizations or immunity. Do dr's offices have frequent flyer miles for so many visits in 1 month?

Today was the day from H E double hockey sticks! If it could go wrong, it DID! And it wasn't even major things. Stupid stuff like fax machine wouldn't work. Printer kept eating the paper. I lost my watch. I shut my finger in the car door. Darling hubby was laughing his butt off at me as I'm saying bad words to the printer. See if he ever gets nookie again!

Round 6

Round 6 began a couple days ago. It seemed to have taken a long time to get the positive opk's this time. It definately wasn't the same predictable schedule as previous months. Have to talk to the Dr. about it on the 17th when I go. Travis will be going to this appt with me. Yeahhhhhh I get to see him for more than dropoff late at night. Chuck thinks the neighbors are convinced I'm a drug addict with all these night time dropoffs. I can't bring myself to tell them not to worry, it's just my monthly sperm delivery. But the looks on their faces...Oh it would be priceless! Last night the temptation to shout across the parking lot "Thank you for my fix" was too great and I had to give in. Tonight I'll behave. I promise.

Will it ever stop?

So my former IM is at it again. For those of you who know the details from before, this time it's Facebook. I just don't understand WHY? What is there for her to gain from it? To make sure I'm never able to forget how much she hurt me? Come on seriously now, she got what she wanted, leave me alone. Hell will freeze over before I ever give her another baby. I know she wants one. I only hope she doesn't find some other unsuspecting woman to use, abuse & throw away. She's not intimidating me so that can't be her motivation. *Sigh* maybe I just need to accept the fact the woman is off her rocker. I've spoken to the police dept and the lawyer today. Hopefully this can be worked out without me having to file formal charges. She has a job that requires a clean criminal background so pressing charges could really mess with her life. Which would also hurt the boys in the long run. I don't want to do that if at all possible to avoid. I also cannot keep sacrificing my own sanity, children, family and mental well being either. This would be so much easier if I could hate her. I don't. Not sure I ever could. She was at one time a pretty important part of my life. Someone wake me from this bad dream please.