Cycle Update

Well AF showed yesterday so we have cycle #6 negative. I've sat here trying to think of positive things to say. It's not coming to me this morning. This whole thing sucks! I'm frustrated, angry, sad. Hubby left to take the kids to school so I'm sitting here crying. If he saw me crying I'd get that look like I was nuts. I don't understand what is going wrong??? Hopefully the Dr. can give us some answers on Wednesday when we meet with her. It's so hard not to let all the bad thoughts creep into my mind after this many failed cycles. Maybe I'm too old? Maybe I'm not meant to do this for some reason? Whatever game Mother Nature or fate is playing with us...you will notice NONE of us are laughing. So knock it off already!!!