Insems begin again

Tonight we start round 5 of insems. PLEASE let this be our month.

2ww is over

And we have another failed cycle. So on to cycle #5.

Not much to update on

We're still waiting. Nothing to report on the surrogacy front. Two of the kids and I have colds again. I just love the germs that come home from school. Poor Catherine and Alexa have had eye boogers. It looks like pink eye but they say it doesn't itch or hurt. So I'm going to wait it out a few days, see what happens.

The 2ww is dragging

So we finished insems on the 23rd. Have been waiting, waiting, waiting some more. This could very well be the worst part of the journey. As soon as you enter the 2ww hell time stops. So far I haven't tested. Peesticks are not my friends. They are evil, posessed things that call out your name trying to get you to use them way too soon. *sigh* Anyone have xray vision? Wanna tell me what's going on in there?

Ouch! Ovulation pain

Ok so I'm pretty sure I ovulated last night and the egg was half the size of a fully developed 10 pound baby. There was seriously so much pain I couldn't sleep, couldn't stand up straight, looked like an old woman trying to walk. It finally let up about an hour ago. Thank goodness! Those little swimmers better find the egg this month. I know without a doubt there's at least one in there waiting for them.

How we change over time

The past few days I've been kinda taking a cyber walk down memory lane and reading old things I've posted on SMO since 2004. It's amazed me how I have changed. In just over 4 years time I've watched so many surrogacy journies unfold, seen good, bad and down right ugly things happen. Many many members there have touched me in ways they more than likely haven't a clue about. Friendships have formed. Lifelong bonds have been built. Relationships have been forever changed. All with what appears to be simple words on a screen. But those words are not just words. When you reach out to someone they remember that. If you hurt someone they never forget. They may forgive but they do not forget. I even found some of my old posts about my first surrogacy. Those left me in tears. It still hurts how that all turned out. Oh how I wish I could go back in time to see if there was something that could have saved the relationship. But I can't. To all my readers please please always tell those you love or care about how important they are to you. You never know if or when the chance to do so could be taken from you.

What a way to wake up

So this morning I get woken up by the sounds of yelling across the hall. Yup, you guessed it, the older two kids were fighting already. Out of bed I go to find out what the problem is. That was my first mistake. I should have just gone downstairs. Victoria & Catherine were fighting because one looked at the other's drawing. This proceeded into a whole bunch of crying from Catherine along with Victoria declaring she is never ever EVER drawing again in this lifetime. Evidently whatever the major, life altering issue was between them this morning has since been worked out. They are happily playing dress up now.